I HATE WAITING

My pain is growing stronger
When will the doors open my love
When will we be free
When will the chains be torn of
and will you be with me
When will this endless charade stop
Exposing the love I share with thee
When can I shout it from the rooftop
When is this for the world to see
Speak up now and have no fear
Please don’t let it be much longer
Break the silence soon my dear
Speak up now, stand tall and proud
For tomorrow might be too late
Speak up now and speak out loud
Let the world know of our faith
For tomorrow I might not stay
The walls are closing in
I will spread my wings and fly away
I will take my heart and leave without you within

DROWNING

I've been swimming for years
but i can't find my way to this surface
and i'm swamped
it seems like the water is always there
and has always been there
i may break through
on occasion
find driftwood... stay afloat
until the next wave
and i wonder sometimes
when it's going to end.
it comes in waves
this lost feeling of loneliness
that no one understands
the utter conviction that no one understands
and nothing is real
i want to feel like i'm here
but my limbs are numb
and there's nowhere but down
lungs bursting for air
but i can't breathe this atmosphere
i can be up up up
i can be happy
it happens
and then without warning
waves
that steal my breath
and i'm drowing
and i'm terrified

REALLY...WHAT IS LOVE?

Each night I dream of love
What it was like
To be cherished and treasured
To be accepted for me
My life, it isn't the greatest
Caught up in confusion
And a whirlwind of pain
When will I break free
I've seen love, stared it in the face
I've held love and been beheld by it
I know it's real
I long for it, desire it
Why did this have to happen?
Where did things go wrong?
Will I ever get the chance again
To know love, to be loved?

IT USED TO BE MINE

Just as your heart belonged to me
My heart belonged to you all those years ago
We were to suffer a cruel fate
That would tear us apart
The path I chose sent us in separate directions
I regret my choice all those years ago
We have once more found each other again
due to Devine intervention
We found the love we once shared
But it is so much stronger this time
On the same path of life
We are currently and always will be
For our lives and undeniable love for each other 
Are moving in the same direction
Just as your heart belongs to me
My heart belongs to you once more
I love you with all of my heart & soul
I just wanted to tell you 
And that deep down
We both know this was truly meant to be

IT WAS ME

I now see
How very wrong I was
Photographs and memories
Of the special times
A tear stained face
A broken heart
Is all that I have left
I was so sure
When we met
That we were meant to be
She gave me strength
To carry on
Her beacon in the night
She helped me through
When times got tough
She made her feel
No trouble was
Too much for her to bare
She was my confidante
With a sympathetic ear
She was my best friend
And my lover
She took my breathe away
I fell for her
Because
Of all of this and more
I told her once
I loved her
I built up walls
She could not break
And were impossible to climb
I left her standing
All alone
With tears streaming down her face
She tried to understand
Why it all fell apart
She was so sure
My love was real
Why did I break her heart?

PLEASURE

I Touch Her Body So Soft and Strong
A Treat of love 
Only Making Us Closer
Her Loving Moans 
A Kiss From Her Lips
Deep And Trusting
A Loving Kiss
Only Going Where She Wants
The Sound From Her Light My Passion
Then to Her Breasts
Slowly Time Has Stopped In All Places 
But Our Bodies
To Her Firm Tan Stomach
Another Soft Kiss Of Passion
A Feelling Of Wanting From Her
My First View Is Breath Taking
A Perfect Body For The Perfect Love
Then Softly As I Hear Her Call My Name
I Blow A Soft Stream Of Air
The Need To Please Is All I Care About
Her Body Shaking Like A Great Crashing Wave
Then Another Soft Kiss
I Recive Pleasure From Her Pleasure
She wants me
I Want her 
A Love That Tonight will Light the Star In Lust
I Start With A Soft Kiss Of Passion
This Is The Moment I Create Pleasure 

CAN I

Can I? 
Love you forever 
To be your knight in shining armor
And you can be my princess
To live happily ever after 
Be the ship to your soul
As you are too mine
Both lost in the sea of love
With no time 
Be your fire
And only my touch to cool you
To melt into you
As we become one
Be your fantasy
Your only lover you ever need
Bringing you to orgasmic ecstasy
When ever you have to need 
Just be your friend
When you are down
To turn that frown
Around with a smile 
Can I…..
Just love you forever?